When I was much younger, the new year was always an exciting phase. I compared it to a clean slate. A 12 year old with a blank journal she could exploit with different shades of ink? What a thrill.
Thinking back, it was much easier to wrap up the previous year – I mean all I had to think about was how I hadn’t scored as high as I’d hoped in social studies, or how the stone age village I had build for my history class could have been better. Those were real problems then. Forgiveness for the mistakes made and expectations unmet came ever so effortlessly.
The little girl grew up, and off to college she went. A clean journal no longer portrayed the mysteries of the future. Mistakes where carried forward. And, with several broken hearts, forgiveness to self and others was a daunting task. Throughout the years, I carried so much with me until motherhood demanded I ease the load.